Well, so. Yes.
The SS Larp Trek has been crashing up against the rocky shores of Writing a little bit in the last few months and a lot in the last few weeks, as any of you who visits on the normal three-times-a-week schedule have well noticed. I probably skipped as many nominal publishing days in January as I didn’t.
The good news is I still like Larp Trek, still want to be making it, and really enjoy it when it’s flowing. This is one of my favorite creative projects I’ve ever done, and one of the most consistent and long-running ones as well (and folks who have followed my creative wanderings over the years can attest many times over how notable me working on one specific thing steadily for more than a year is), and from a doing-a-thing-out-of-love perspective I’m still onboard.
The bad news is, reiterating that I like it doesn’t make strips that aren’t happening suddenly magically happen; I’m struggling to get this shit put together, and it’s frustrating. And it turns out that spending the bulk of a morning agonizing over not getting a strip written is actually kind of crappy. It’s crappy as a one-off thing; it’s crappier still as a recurring issue. I am actively bummed out by the situation, and end up feeling sort of torn between staring actively unhappily at a blinking cursor on the page and just sort of avoiding the whole thing entirely and just being vaguely, distantly unhappy about that avoidance. Until the next Monday or Wednesday or Friday comes around again and it’s unavoidable.
So. I’m trying to not come off like I’m catastrophizing here; I don’t feel like I’m at the end of my rope on this so much as I’m currently unhappy with the bit of rope I’m currently trying to traverse. But updates have been shaky enough for the last several weeks that I felt like it was time to actually talk about it at more length than just “whoops, no strip today” or follow-on radio silence for repeats of same.
I have ideas, and I just need to find my way past my mental blocks and get to them. And my wife’s been supportive, my friends have been supportive, y’all have been patient, and I appreciate that and have gotten a lot of value out of brainstorming and bullshitting about various things Larp Trek and that’s helped get things moving forward again at times when I wasn’t sure what to do with my next strip. I’m just gonna keep trying to figure out how to navigate the rocky bits and get back to it.
In the mean time, in the spirit of forging on with something, I’m gonna go ahead and see what I can do with a silly author-insert thing. No idea where that’s gonna go, but it’ll at least be going somewhere.